Finding my way... Photo courtesy of Mirna Sentic, rgbstock.com |
I think it's finally time I admit something to you all—and to myself.
I'm not Superwoman.
I've always put a lot of pressure on myself to balance the many roles I play in my life: mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, blogger, writer, artist, etc. Up until just before my baby was born, I felt like I was holding on to all of these strings pretty well. I'm not anymore. I've let some of them slip—and I feel like a failure.
You might have noticed that I haven't posted in the last several weeks. I've tried so hard, but I can't seem to find a balance anymore, and my blogging (among other things) has fallen by the wayside. I can't keep up.
About a month ago, a fellow blogger asked me to help her out with a blog hop. I wanted to help, but I just couldn't. This person has been such a good friend to me, and I'm so sad that I had to let her down. That's not like me, and I feel terrible. I'm sorry for that.
I also apologize to those of you who read my blog. I'm sorry I haven't been around. I'm still searching for a groove, some way to fit all the elements of my life together, all of the roles I play. There's no reason I can't blog and be a mother—I've done that for many years—but after my third child was born, I lost my way and haven't yet found it again.
I guess I'm not Superwoman, even though I'd like to be.
I can promise this: I'll try to be around more, although I can't say when. (And I hate to admit that.)
One thing is for certain, however:
I will be back.
Wishing you all a beautiful Monday and a wonderful week. ☺